5.Which sense could you not live without, and why?: hard question. smell though.

^^^i thought it was like asking what i would choose to live without if i had to.... i guess i couldn't live without sight.... or something. idk. i need em all pretty bad lol.

Bury me standing under your window 
With this cinderblock in hand 
Yeah cause no one will ever feel like this again 
And if I could move 
I'm sure it would only be to crawl 
Back to you 
Must've dragged my guts a block 
They were gone by the time we (talked)
Whoa I want to hate you half as much 
As I hate myself 
You know that I could crush you with my voice 
Whoa I want to hate you half as much 
As I hate myself 
You know that I could crush you with my voice 
Stood on my roof and tried to see you forgetting about me 
Hide the details 
I don't want to know a thing
I hate the way you say my name 
Like it's something secret 
My pen is the barrel of the gun 
Remind me which side you should be on
Whoa I want to hate you half as much 
As I hate myself 
But know that I could crush you with my voice 
Whoa I want to hate you half as much 
As I hate myself 
You know that I could crush you with my voice 
Stood on my roof and tried to see you forgetting about me 
Hide the details 
I don't want to know a thing
I wish that I was as invisible 
As you, Make me feel 
Wish that I was as invisible 
As you, make me feel
Whoa I want to hate you half as much 
As I hate myself.

-Fallout Boy



This song is totally what I'm feeling at the moment. It's like ahhh. I really don't want to feel this way about him but I do and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it and it really fucking sucks. Not only that but I hardly ever talk to him 'cause he's in no classes with me but lunch since my life just sucks that way. Whatever. Bye.

Heyy.. so yesterday was Saturday and I woke up pretty late and then I did like nothing at all. lol. Then at 7:30 Katherine and I met up with Bryan, Dan, and their friend Dawn. We went to the pool hall where we saw Cesar. And omg we saw Joe.. like 10 times.. lol. And this bald guy riding a unicycle!! Then after pool we went to get pizza. Then we hung out in front of the movies and talked to like a million people that they knew. lol. It was fun except for this bitchy girl that was pretty rude to Katherine.. I kinda missed it but I heard about it later. So now it's today.. I woke up at 6:30 to go to a cross country meet at Manhatten College. During the warm up Amanda Pechman told me about some game she played in camp. It was really funny:
Amanda: so Loretta, I've been thinking.. someday.. we should.. schmegheggy!
Me: but how does one.. schmegheggy??
Amanda: Slip out of your moccasins and I'll show you!
lmao.. I love that girl. farfanoogle <33. Yeah so then we got a little bit lost.. the trail was kind of confusing. lol. Then finally came our race. I like died though. My right quad (yeah a part of the leg..) immediately felt this sharp pain. Like right from the start I was like.. holy shit.. I can't do this.. so I walked on and off for a little with Amanda, Jen, and Brittany. But then I like started limping so yeah. BUT I WASN'T LAST! In fact I've been told there were a lot of people behind me. Sooo wee! I was like 30 seconds behind my team but whatever. lol. Coach made me see this trainer dude and he didn't help at all. But okayyy.. we talked to him for a while. He was entertaining. I can't wait until Delaware on Friday!!!! Anyways.. then we went to Burger King. This guy was like.. miming.. if that's a verb.. at me and Katherine. It's hard to explain but it was funny. Then I sat with katherine, Tori, and Amanda. Yes. We decided that Victoria is now.. Tori. It was Katherine's idea. lol. Then we went back and watched Kara's race come in. We got really excited when we saw Tracy. lol. Then on the bus ride home, we were talking about random songs people have in their iPods. So I'm like I HAVE RANDOM SONGS. So I playing my personal fave... POP by *Nsync for Amanda. We sangggg... doesnt mattterrrr 'bout the car I drive what I wear around my neck.. all that matters.. is that you recognize that it's just about RESPEEEECT.. POP..!!! lmao. good times.. good times. Then we finally got home and I gave amanda a ride and my mom bonded well with her. because she likes poodles. lol. My dog was in the car with us! So yeahhh.. now I have to shower first and then I have like a shitload of homework I've been putting off. lol. xoxo~Loretta~

Mood: happy
Music: Coheed and Cambria--The Ring In Return
Craving: ice creeeeam
Wearing: white t-shirt, old navy shorts, running sneakers(just got home from xc)

..yeah so today was fun. I was really hyper. hmm.. in psych we.. learned.. i guess. and in Chorale we listened to music on sardo's iPod. We danced to Heya. wee. and he even had nirvana!! lol. in french ms. walsh was our sub!!! and me and emmerz were really hyper. lol. then as we were walking out i said hey to matt and then we saw meatball(max) and like 10 minutes afterwards we're like HEY MAX.. it was funny. then social studies really sucked. and john o'sullivan was really rude to katherine and that's all i remember. anyways then in bio ummm.. something rly funny happened. OH YEAH sophia made an idiot outta herself. lmfao. then in gym we had to run 2 laps and my legs liked diiiiied. then in lunch i walked with lauren to pizza and then we ate it in the chinese place. and scott was in there and he was like telling me i get there too late even tho we were there first... wow. lol. anyways hes stupid 'cause he always complains that he wants to go to akels but he never does! lol. then in english.. he DIDN'T pick me which means i don't have to worry about failing! WOOHOO! katherine did her presentation quite smoothly. i was gonna raise my hand to like help her out but i either didn't know the answers or jarid raised his hand first so i was like screw that then. lol. then in math we took this test that ppl thought was rly hard but it wasnt too bad. there were 2 questions i got pretty stuck on. it was just sooooooooooo long! lol. then kelly, kara, katherine, and i all hung out in MS NAPPI'S ROOM! lmao. i love herrrr! we wrote all over her boards. i think we should totally do that every day. then at xc i had an okay workout. nothing too painful. now i finally convince my parents to let me go out even though it's yom kippur but i've decided i'm an atheist now. i don't believe in all that magical crap. but anyways.. so tonight me, emily, lauren, and tara are all gonna chill at kelly's house and watch the exorcist! wee! fun stuffles.. xoxo byeee!

Hey.. so today kinda sucked like a lot. Hmmm well I actually woke up at 6:00 on the dot for once. But then stupid me, I decided to go cuddle with my dog and fell asleep using her as my pillow. So I was rushed as usual. I'm not gonna go throug every period 'cause I'm a lazyass. But in French I actually got 48/50 on this test everyone like failed so wee. And hmm in Social Studies she gave us this sheet of all the upcoming homework. And it's like one chapter a fucking night and I'm gonna fail this class. I wish I could just drop it. And then she says "This won't be the only homework between now and then." Wowww.. I hate AP. grr. Then during Lunch I had this whole thing planned out. But he walks like a frigging lunatic and Lauren couldn't keep up so I had to walk slowly. It made me so frustrated. I actually missed the pop quiz in English 'cause I raised my hand to go to the bathroom to avoid crying in front of people. I knew it was coming so I got out. I didn't go to the bathroom though, I went out the back doors and like slammed my head into the wall and cried. Then I went back and the rest of the schoolday was kind of a blurr. Since I was like dead and all. But anyways.. then I went to Yorker Club with Kelly and Katherine. The guy made it sound like a social studies class but hopefully it will be as cool as Kelly told us it is. So yeah.. then I went to Cross Country which only made things worse. I get there and am told I'm gonna have to miss the 'houn vs. JFK game that I had plans to go to.. because I have to run 5 freaking miles to Fayette. So yeah. I was mostly with.. omfg.. what are their names.. Regina.. and this other girl. I've talked to her like every day for the past month and I don't know her name. Go me. Anyway.. I probably sound like this really bitter person right now but I don't really give a shit. Moving on.. then like.. yeah I got a little happier since that stupid workout was finally over.. and me and Katherine went to the game together. We sat with like the Cross Country team. lol. Although everyone left after halftime. We bought food and stuff. And then I called my dad for a ride home since Katherine needed to get her english project done (awe I'm really glad I don't have this problem.. lol) and he totally flipped a shit on me. It was really annoying. Then I came home and had like a half hour of homework. But it took me like an hour because my parents kept interrupting me and I really wanted to strangle them. lol. And my dog apparently ate the couch.. nothing like that has ever happened before.. so now I'm not allowed to bring her on the couch anymore. Which sucks 'cause when I'm pissed off if I'm not listening to music and locking myself in my room, I'm cuddling with my dog on the couch. But I have to "act mad" at her so she knows she's in trouble. And right now I have this other annoyance that I won't go into here.. but basically I'm stuck with someone I really can't stand and I just want to scream at but I have to grin and bear it at least until after high school. UGH.. good.. bye.

I know I don't know you
But I want you so bad
<3
LoReTtA

Basics:

1. What is your name? Loretta
2. Where do you live? Merrick, NY
3. Where were you born? Einstein hospital--Bronx
4. What color is your hair? brown
5. ...your eyes? brown.. im pretty boring lol
6. How tall are you? 5'4"
7. How much do you weigh? 90 lbs last i checked.. which was like june..
8. What language(s) do you speak? english, french, and i can read hebrew only
9. Do you like high school? sure do.. even tho the work sucks.. i have fun at school lol
10. Who do you live with? mom, dad, brother age 12

Favorites:

color: pink and orange
state: new york i suppose
foreign country: china sounds pretty awesome =P 
store: got a few: pacsun, urban outfitters, american eagle, aeropastle, delias
animal: pigs!
scent: i dont remember all their names.. except beyond paradise lol
season: summerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
shape: stars! or hearts.. pertyyy

About Me:

1. What do you want to be when you grow up: psychologist
2. Are you happy with yourself: right now i feel good about me.. but sometimes i don't. lol
3. Do you normally confront people or let things go? let it go
4. Would you rather get things done early or put them off? wellllllll i would RATHER get them done early.. but that literally NEVER happens. lol.
5. If you don't know someone do you act quiet and awkward or friendly and open? im pretty open with ppl i dont know lol
6. Do you worry about money or just buy things whenever you want? I worry about it after I buy it.. lol
7. Are you usually preppy or punky? I can't say I fit either of those categories
 8. When you are in the middle of a crisis, do you keep it all to yourself, tell only a few people, or ask everyone's opinion? keep it all to myself or just tell one person
9. Do you prefer working in groups or alone? alone
10. Are you superstitious? nope
11. Do you read a lot? only if there's a book i'm into
12. Do you ever write... for FUN? all the time.. every night i write a poem lately.
13. What is your favorite material item? my computer biznatch. even tho it frustrates me. lol.
14. What item of yours has the most sentimental value? my diary. if anyone ever read that i'd shoot myself. i rly wud.
15. Would you rather spend a day listening to music or watching movies? music, by far.
16. Would you prefer vacationing to a tropical area or a mountainous one? tropical.. but i'd really just rather stay home. lol. or go to like africa.. or asia.. or europe! im not big on bonding with nature during vacations. altho im always stuck on those kinds of trips anyways. agh.
17. At parties do you go off in the corner or are you dancing in the middle of everything? depends on my mood
18. Would you prefer hanging out in large groups, with just one other person, or a small group? depends small groups
19. Do you play any team sports? cross country
20. Can you describe life in one word? not i really can't lol

Social life:

Who are your closest friends? tara. kayti. natalya. lisa. katherine. emily. lauren. kara. sean. yiannis. charlie. i think thats all.. if i forgot u i rly do love u.. lol
Who is your best girl friend? tara
Who is your best guy friend? hmm.. i can't decide
Who is the most outgoing? kayti
Who is the most flirtatious? katherine
Who is the most hyper? we are all pretty damn hyper. lol
Who gives the best advice? i do. lol.. sry, but i do. (this being for me.. im not saying if u need me to help u ill snap on super mode and tell u what to do)
Who is the easiest to talk to? tara
Who annoys you the most? i'd rather not give names.
Who is the "gayest"? i hve no idea.
Who is the most independent? emily
Who is the most mature? im thinking about this one.. natalya. by far.
Who has the coolest style? lisa
Who is the most blunt? lisa lol
Who is the most fun to joke around with? tara!! and kelly!! lol
Who is the most "ghetto"? we're just one big ghetto family, yo.
Who is your oldest friend? natalya
Who do you wish to see more often? lisa and kelly.. but with yorker club that shudnt be a problem.
Who do you cry with? i avoid crying in front of other humans at all costs. my dog helps though.
Who makes you laugh the hardest? tara
Who do you have the most memories with? natalya.. or tara.. since when im with her weird things occur. lmfao.
Who is the weirdest? tara. and i'm pretty weird myself. just to let u know.
Who is always cool and collected? katherine
Who is the most religious? hmmmmmmmm none of us are religious to tell u the truth. lol

Romance:

Are you single? yep
If not, who is your boyfriend? n/a
If yes, do you have a crush? yep
Have you ever hugged a boy? hell yeah! lol
Have you ever kissed? yepperdoo
Have you ever "fooled around"? yeah
Have you ever gone ALL THE WAY? lol nopez
How long would you have to know a guy before going all the way? there are different cases. but i'd have to be in love.

Have You Ever:

Heyy.. today was coolness. 1st period we did this funny experiment. The guy had to wear a blindfold and go downstairs to the cafeteria to buy a snack from the vending machine. You could hear him and his "guide" screaming all the way down the hall. lmao. It was all about the senses and shiz. In Chorale we had a sub. But she wouldn't let me and Tara go anywhere so we couldn't ditch lol. We sat on the window sill. In French we took this quiz and it was okay except the first part. That was hard. Yeah so in AP World History.. which sucks.. we did this discussion. I semi-knew what was going on. I just hate stuff like that. I don't like talking to my entire class at once. I can be pretty loud but not when everyone is like listening.. and I can't explain so.. moving on. In Biology Lindley gave us pretzels again 0=). Then we looked at all the.. living things. The fishies were dying =(. Then in gym I hung out with some people that I know from art club. And this other guy who is friends with them.. he's in my science class but idk his name.. was making fun of Sophia for going out with Kaitlyn Seizer's brother =P. lol. I ran a lap but my time got worse 'cause my legs are killing me. 1:29. Oh well. I told Musc I was hurtin' though. Anyways.. during lunch Lauren was absent again.. so I went to the pizza place with Erica and her friends.. holy shiz I forgot their names.. wait.. Marial.. and Scott! YEAH! Everything I said they would say I was like Sam McCarthy. lol. I have to meet this girl. I'm always told I'm like her. Then in English I got in this big fight with Jarid. lol. Then our whole class had this long conversation about RFP signups. And then we talked about.. the book. yay. I guess. Then in Math I had a hard time staying awake. Not unusual. Tomorrow is our first unit test in that class. I got 100% on the quiz last week =). Not worried. lol. But yeah.. then I met up with Tara and we went to get drinks and bought some stuff from the Drama Bake Sale. And then we went to art club! Mr. Goldberg took us to see the float from last year.. which is awesome by the way.. and then me, Tara, and Natalya went outside and tried SOCK SKATING in the hallway! It was so fuckin' fun.. we kept falling on our asses. lol. I hit my funny bones once =/. Charlie saw us and he was like.. what the shit.. lol. Then Tara went and fell right in front of the room everyone was in. And they all stared at her. lmao. Then Peter came out to warn us that we should stop. lol. Then we went back upstairs and the three of us made the PERFECT gigantic bishop. WOOHOO! Our float's gonna rawk the homecoming parade. Kennedy vs. Calhoun tomorrow! Me and Katherine are gonna go.. wee. Yeah so I was taping stuff on people's backs. And Sean actually let me put the "Out To Lunch.. go away" sign I found on him. but Meatball (Max) couldn't be fooled by the "I <3 Raping Monkeys" sign. Natalya wrote that to put on my back but I caught her and I was like "I'll put it on my nose" but I really just stole it. hehe. Anyways.. then Natalya left and me and Tara walked to Baskin Robins. I got a chocolate blast =P mm mm good. Then I went to the bathroom and we were gonna leave. But Tara wanted to try and get her entire hand on this maroon stripe at the top of the wall in the hallway by the bathroom. So for like at least a half hour we would run and jump and throw ourselves and the wall and crack up. lmfao. I liked the part where Tara like fell on her ass and then I fell because I was laughing so hard. And then Alex Mussafi passed by and was like "wtf r u 2 doing" and he tried it without even jumping and got his hand as high as ours with a running jump. oh yeah. Later we even discovered there was a security camera there the whole time. omgggg.. lol. We never did succeed =(. We're gonna try to gain endurance though =D. Then I finally came home and now I really have to do my work.. soooo bye! xoxo ~Loretta~

well.. today was cool. First period is always rly quiet. which sucks cuz mr. smestad is so cool. i guess i'm missin out. oh well. anyway in chorale we learned more of that song. lol. then in french we learned about fairytales and we split into groups. my group talked about what they did this weekend. =P what great students. then.. siiign. anyway. then in social studies... let's just say i survived. wow do i hate that class. i hate how the stupid teacher doesn't hole punch all the frikken dittos. and there are so many too. how come every other teacher can do it but she can't!?!? and then it creates all this noise and chaos. why is this a good thing? ughhh.. i don't like her. grr. anyway, then i had.. umm biology. sophia was so mean! i really had to pee. and it was so slow and boring. and she was drawing toilets and water on the paper to annoy me! and i was like DIE! lol. then we went to gym.. the right way this time. lol. first we ran a lap. and mr. muscarella says "okay.. guys.. go for 1:30.. girls.. 1:45." and this girl goes "why do the girls get a longer time?" and he says "'cause.. girls are slower." and they got in this whole big argument. and then.. we ran it.. and i got 1:27. I WAS SO PROUD!! i beat the guyyy's time!! hehe. yeah so then i had lunch. at first i was really mad. 'cause musc gave us literally ONE minute to change. so i was late. and i was really afraid i'd miss my baby boy. but then he didn't even freaking show up when we got there. and i was really frustrated. lol. BUT THEN.. we were waiting for the bell to ring.. like.. by the back doors or whatever.. you know the one that always smells like pot? yeah. and then he smiled.. and like acknowledged me. =D =D it was so adorable. lol. and his sister came in and like knocked him over. lmao. then i went to english. jarid was like hiding my milkshake from me. and he kept turning around and doing his work on MY DESK! and i was like holy shit.. go awayyyy.. lol. wow. he's annoying. anyway.. then we were talking about how there isn't peace in the world yet it's more peaceful than it's ever been or something. and this guy.. dennis.. goes "we should all live under the water." lmfao. highlight of the day.. besides.. yeahhhhh.. hehe <33. anyways.. afterwards dennis explained his logic.. it was kinda stupid.. but i think i'll leave you all in the dark.. just for fun! sooo.. then i had math. and i thought of this alternative way to do the problem. and then she had me demonstrate it for the class. it was kind of embarrassing.. but i felt really smart anyway. lol. i'm cool. so yeah.. then i went to my locker where i met kelly and katherine. and then we went to visit ms. nappiiiii! we didn't really talk to her.. we just.. stood there. but ya know what? i had fun. i really miss that class. dayum. then we went to mr. bolands room. and katherine was like I WANNA JOIN STUDENT COUNCIL. so he goes "okay stick around" and then she decided to leave.. since we wouldn't join with her and she had nobody to sit with. lmao. then we changed for cross country. which was kinda fun in the beginning. we ran to the fruit stand. and me and kara ran ahead and we were like singing. it was kinda weird. but i had fun. but then i got this searing pain in my left shoulder like i pulled a muscle or something. so i walked with this freshman named Heather. she was so nice. lol. when we got there we used the boys' water. aww i miss Mr. Hendler toooo! lol. then this other freshman.. who i umm.. don't remember the name of? felt really sick. so i walked back with her instead of running. first of all.. my shoulder was really killing me. second of all.. i remember being a freshman.. and i wouldn't have wanted to walk 2 miles back to school by myself. so yeahh. then we went home. and i went online. and ate. and did my homework. and went back online. what a life i have. lol. okayyy.. bye!

)~~~>LoReTtA<~~~(

I'm going to make the things that apply to me underlined cuz my comp's not working right.

01. i have a cell phone.
02. i have friends who use me.
03. i am an only child.
04. i am a shopoholic.
05. i love dangly earrings.
06. i have smoked a cigarette before
07. i love cold weather.
08. i'm obsessed with the computer.
09. i have shot a gun before.
10. i can't live without music.
11. i have no tolerance of ignorant people.
12. i have ridden on a motorcycle before.
13. i'll be in this town forever.
14. i've been to 5 other countries.
15. i get annoyed easily.
16. i eventually want kids.
17. i have neat handwriting.
18. i have more than a few horrible memories.
19. i am addicted to chocolate.
20. i am an atheist.
21. my parents are strict.
22. i love airplane rides. (sometimes)
23. i love taking pictures.
24. i hate girls who are fake.
25. i can be mean when i want to.
26. my parents care about my grades.
27. one of my best friends is a guy.
28. i have way too many purses.
29. i'm obsessed with lip gloss.
30. i am easy to talk to.
31. i would never eat raw fish.
32. i cry easily.
33. i hate when people are late.
34. i procrastinate.
35. i love winter.

36. i have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. i love to sleep.
38. i wish i were smarter.
39. i'm afraid of flying.
40. i hate drama.
41. i bite my nails.
42. i have been on an 8 hour drive.
43. i never fight with my parents.
44. i love the beach.
45. i have never had the chicken pox.
46. i have gone out in public in my pajamas.
47. i can't control my emotions.
48. i have a best friend.
49. i have moved more than once
50. i truly love my friends.
51. i have braces.
52. i love to write.
53. i have never broken a bone.
54. i love to draw.
55. i hate my computer.
56. i love guys that play the drums.
57. i state the obvious.
58. i'm a happy person.
59. i love to dance.
60. i love to sing.
61. i love cleaning my room. (if im super bored)
62. i tend to get jealous very easily.
63. i love cute underwear.
64. i have gotten high before.
65. i love night better than day.
66. i have been on the phone for over 5 hours at a time.
67. i don't like to study for tests.
68. i love God.
69. i am too forgiving.
70. i have horrible sense in direction.
71. i miss elementary school.
73. i'm a daddy's girl.
74. i love kisses on my forehead.
75. i love the color pink.
76. i love to sew.
77. my eye color changes.
78. i should see a therapist.
79. i played on a guys sports team.
80. i become stressed easily.
81. i hate liars.
82. i like comfy sweatpants.
83. i can play the piano.
84. i love the smell of rain.
85. i love my family.
86. i hate needles.
87. i am a perfectionist 
88. i always wanted to learn to play the drums.
89. i hate the feeling of failure.
90. i have friends in other countries.
91. i know how to cook.
92. i can hold a grudge forever.
93. at times, i still act like a little kid.
94. i have food allergies.
95. i love little kids.
96. i love to read. (sometimes)
97. i wish i were more motivated for school.
98. i love getting stuff in the mail.
99. i have problems with letting go of old feelings.
100. i hate being alone.
101. i love summer.
102. i love the weekends.
103. i love black eyeliner.
104. i think im pretty.
105. i type with one hand.
106. i live in a one story house.
107. i wear make-up.
108. i have never rode on an underground subway.
109. i can't swim.
110. i have bad memory.
111. i go to church.
112. i sing in the shower. (lol A LOT)
113. i have never been camping.
114. i hate cheerleaders
115. i usually get what i want.
116. i have been on stage before.
117. i love roller coasters.
118. no one knows the full story of my life
119. i am close with my parents.
120. i don't have a curfew. (well it changes every night)

yeahhh.. so today i went to lisa's house. her friends katie and preethi came over. we were really hyper. and i called matt a lot. and of course the highlight of my day was this face.. lisa made. lmfao. and katie calling matt.. that was fabulous too. yeahhh so.. hope u liked that quiz. byee <3 Loretta <3